AHHH Im soo stoked for this friday. I cant belive im actually graduating. But trust me, its been more nerve wracking than it has been exciting. Im still organizing the ride part. And all this stress is causing me to break out, which is making me stress out more because I now have breakouts, so its all some viscious circle that leaves me ugly and paniked.
Oh and not only an I excited beacuse I get to dress up all pretty but I also get to see my mortal enemy from grade 3 who I havnt seen or heard of for ... 9 years! Is that not the perfect way to leave high school?
Im even slightly looking forward to tomorrows church service and hopefully I dont trip on my heels or do something equally embarrassing, cause I always think that Im going to.

Words of advice for life:

- It takes 42 muscles to frown but only 6 to reach over and deck somebody

- You have to remember that the really really truely wonderful things are the ones that almost kill you

- Smile, things could be worse

knock on wood

Wow... I think im still in shock... yesterday I was peacefully having a nap in my room and my mom came in my room to ask me what I wanted for supper cause it was only me and her home. Then after that... she asked me if its time to start thinking about birth control. yeaaaaah.... first she asked me how "intimate" me and bryan were getting. It was the weirdest conversation i've had with my mom since.. well I hit puberty I think.

That was a awkward experience but I think im going to bring it up again soon, because nothing really got solved or anything.

Is it to early to start worrying about spider veins... cause I think im starting to get them on my ankle.
How sad is that, I have grad in less than a week... and Im already worrying about getting old and spider veins. god.... I already have stretch marks and cellulite, why not tack on spider veins at a mere age of 17.

I hate being mad/ depressed for no reason what so ever. I think its just stress, but its getting to me. We had the stupid church service rehersal today and that was a waste of my time. I dont even want to go to it, Id rather do something other than listen to our retarded "grad choir" sing and do other worthless crap. wow... im bitter.
I still dont have a ride to grad either, which is lame cause its next week. Im thinking of taking a limo..... but I dont know if that will all work out cause everyone probably already has a ride and it needs to hold 8 people.
Im freaking out...................... gah

swallow my doubt, turn it inside out

Its funny how a majorly upset stomach can make you remember certain events about last summer. But to further my now confirmed research. Dr.pepper before eating something barbecued does not go over well. We went over to bryan's sister michelles house tonight and it was a lot of fun. Jessie is so cute. Jessie is bryans nephew who is only 7 months old.
Tomorrow is our 6 month anniversary.

And man do I still have a crap load of things to do before grad

Today bryan surprised me by coming home early. Its amazing how much I missed him and he was only gone a day and a half. It was sad. I went over to his house at 3, and just got home... and its about 11 ish. I just couldnt stand to be away from bryan for any longer. Even though im sure your getting sick just listening to this.
We rented mallrats tonight too. I wanted to get team america but noo... besides the fact that it was rated 18a, It was all out of course. But mallrats is SUCH a good movie. I love it.
Tomorrow... me and bryan get to go to his sisters house for a barbecue.... that should be interesting, but at the same time im deathly afraid.

This sucks..... its may long weekend.... and im stuck at home. Im going to be miserable, or if not me, I will do a rain dance and make it so no one else has fun. Yes I admit it I am selfish.

carnival time

Ladies and gentlemen. I have done the unthinkable, gone to extreames, and now, I can cross one thing off of my to do list. I have gone blonde. Yes you heard me, I dyed my hair blonde today. And I love it. My mom hates it, I had to lie to her to get it done, I said I was going "light brown" but noo.... I AM BLONDE.
Im going to have to get used to this. It looks like they transplanted shakira's hair on to my scalp.

So many times before, what are you afraid of

Today I learned the weirdest thing. This guy that I hang out with, one of bryans friends (who totally looks like a sex god) Is going out with my mortal enemy from grade 3!!! Yes thats right.... she always knows how to pick them I guess. I hated her with ALL my guts though, because she liked cody, and he liked her. And she was blonde, and smiled funny, and was a "figure skater". If she ends up going camping with him, and us.... O dear, I just might keel over and die from irony poisoning.

Oh I also had a weird day because I saw two business guys ..... riding a bike. One was in black, with black slicked hair. The other was in just a blue dress shirt, and tie, talking on his cell phone all while riding a bike.

Omg I cant believe I am fucking done. Im soooooo glad cause one more class I would have either had a complete unnecessary spaz. Or I would have killed someone, or maybe various people........... GRRR. 3 1/2 hours for 5 days... gah. But at least tonight when I did the test and passed. I got free sunglasses, and they have a tag on them that says that they're worth $80! O yeah baby, im just gonna bling it out in my expensive sunglasses. They would probably be the third most expensive article of clothing/accessories I have! wow.. Im sad.
Today me and bryan went around and picked up travel brochures. We're going to MEXICO! Next spring hopefuly, when I am 18... I cant wait.

Noooooooo holy dear, I felt like shooting myself in the head tonight. Im dead serious. I just got home from the BORINGEST three and a half hours that I have ever had to go through!! Drivers Ed...................... NEVER AGAIN. After this week I will hopefully never have to encounter anything like it ever again!