Nothing says christmas like...

Bryans grandma is just soo funny when shes drunk. First off it was just weird seeing someone older then 35 drunk let alone your boyfriends grandma. It was great. Bryan took advantage and made her give him a whole container full of baked cookies..mmm even though she almost didnt make it down the stairs safely. Then his grandpa almost tripped and died on a vent in the floor when he was getting another beer. Plus his grandma also gave me a speech about how I am now part of the family blah blah blah.
Today Im going over to his dads house, then back to redcliff, where his family will probably be all drunk again, and then im coming back here to OPEN PRESENTS! YAY!

Yesterday I had to work a long and very painful 9 hours. And I was all over the place. By that I mean I was being very clumbsy. and stupid. But anyways, I still havnt got my cc of a supervisor anything. I bet thats why he gave me it a week in advance, so that I would have plenty of time to go out and buy him something.... hahahha not. Yesterday the funny truck driver told me I was pretty, it was cute, yet weird. Thank god I only have two more days of work..

OOOOO Today I get presents, yay. Since my aunt is going to mexico for the holidays (rich bitch) I get presents tonight. I wonder what it is..
Bryan showed me all the presents under his tree from him and his family and they look just so gosh darn pretty considering his step mom is a PRO wrapper.
Now Im leaving to go eat everything in site cause there is no one here to stop me.

Movies movies movies

Well my twelve days of christmas have just kind of fizzled out into the dusty air. So this is what we did all those days.

Dec 11.
-Decorated bryans christmas tree. Saw the christmas train, for 30 seconds cause we're losers who didnt go to the right place. Went back to bryans house for chinese food. Went to see the Chronicles of Narnia. Then went to Tim Hortons for some goood coffee.

Dec 12.
- Went christmas shopping. Watched Noel at my house. Made a gingerbread house.

Dec 13.
- Watched the Santa Clause at bryans house.

Dec 14.
-Watched garfields christmas. Made sugar cookies. Watched Christmas Vacation.

Dec 15.
-Went to amandas christmas concert.

Dec 16.
- Went out for supper. Went to "moonlight madness". Watched King Kong.

Dec 17.
- Wrapped all of bryans family's presents. Had a picnic a la McDonalds on bryans bed while we watched home alone.

Dec 18.
- More christmas wrapping and shopping. Watched Rudolf.

Dec 19.
- Made cranberry cocktails. Watched Christmas with the Kranks.

Dec 20.
- Went out for supper. Watched The Family Stone.

Ten lords a leaping

Well I have started my twelve days of christmas. By that I mean that between the 12th and 24th of december im going to do something very christmasy every night. Its fun. But im not going to tell what we did until the very end, cause it changes every night cause no one likes to keep schedules besides me... and my parents are poop bags. The other night when I was making my gingerbread house, they almost didnt let me because "it was 10 at night and everyone was going to bed". It didnt have anything to do with me making a gingerbread house... so I carried on and they got mad and so did I cause gingerbread houses are very hard to make. But after all it was beautiful because me and bryan even gave them a satelitte dish. Plus the little snow people were eating elves. They were a very happy little snow family.

O... Im out of hot chocolate, it makes me upset.
p.s. Thats chewed gum on the top of the male snow persons head. Theres lots more chewed gum, you just cant see it from the picture. It adds a personal touch I think.

fa la la la la

Bryan bought a new car a couple days ago, so that means we have our freedom back, yay. Its a dodge shadow, and its red and it even has command start. We need that command start, its friggin cold here. It got down to minus 34 on... tuesday. yikes. Yesterday we went to the library to go watch Love actually in their mini theatre, it was cool. I love that movie. And before we went to the movies yesterday, I made shortbread cookies, I attempted to at first.. btu that didnt turn out so well cause it didnt seem like there was enough butter, but after about an hour of creaming it all together it actually kinda looked like it would be edible. Those cookies are friggin hard to make I tell you. But mmm are they worth it. Other than that I still need to buy bryan more christmas presents. I hate christmas, im so broke now. Its too bad im not 8 anymore, that way I didnt need to buy people presents.

Cowboys

Last night bryan slept over. My parents wernt too happy in the morning, but o well. We did kind of plan it, but we honestly just fell asleep then woke up at 5 in the morning without even planning to. The christmas parade was this morning, it was kinda lame and by that I mean really lame. We went to dairy queen and by the time we left there, it was over. Then we went over to bryans house, watched bewitched then I read his step moms scrapbook ideas book and fell asleep. Then I got woken up by two strange people in bryans bedroom, let me tell you THAT was awkward. Turns out it was his old best friend who lives in edmonton and his girlfriend. So we all chatted for a bit then they left. Bryans step mom said that she didnt know at first who it was, because they came in from the backyard so she was all freaked out and she was about to tackle him down, that would have been funny. Oh those cops. After we made nachos. Then we went out for supper with my parents out for chinese.. mmmmm. Then we met bryans friend at the movies and we all saw Just Friends and had a merry little night.

christmas is a time for me

The other day, I was on my lunch break and I walked past la senza but I just couldnt fully do it. So I went in, and bought a crap load of underwear. I figured since I was working so much this year, new christmas underwear was just the thing I needed to make it all worth while. So I ended up spending $80 just on 8 pairs of underwear and a bra, plus I also bought the prestige card.
Yesterday I also went to le chateau because I need christmas party clothes. The other thing I could find ofr my prices were shirts that didnt fit me cause I was either swimming in them or almost needed to call in people to get me out of them. Its too bad. But Im still contemplating over this really nice skirt. Its not christmas party worthy, but it is a la carte dinning in mexico worthy.
But I need christmas clothes damnit. Thats why im taking bryan downtown tonight for midnight madness. Its our 1 year anniversary, so we are also going to The Vineyard.

almost like halloween

Its not very much fun on weekends when you dont have the freedom of a car. But other than just laying around at bryans like we did practically all today. Yesterday after work I bought christmas presents and presents for myself. I bought myself madonnas new cd, then bryan's sister picked us up and we went to bonanza for dinner. Then we went to the christmas homemade craft show. It was alright. Then we went to superstore, shopped a little. We even got to see Harry potter. It was super fantastic. There were loads of people who actually dressed up for it. Man... if I liked harry potter that much I think I would have dressed up too. But then I had to take a stinky cab home with some guy who just talked in monotone. blah blah blah.
This next week is going to be hell. My supervisor is on holidays again so that means I have to work full time, and its usually really really boring just working 5-6 hours... let alone.. 8! Plus stupid hour lunch breaks... which are a waste of my time. I could be at home for that one hour... but no.. im stuck there.

Bryan got in an accident today. After breakfast this morning I phoned him and told him to meet me at the mall by the food court. So me and my family go to the mall and we were in zellers for 10 minutes, then I went to go wait for him. He didnt show, so I called him. He told me he couldnt come pick me up because he had just got in an accident and he told me where he was. After that I walked back to zellers and just started crying alot. So my mom asked me why he wasnt here and why I was crying, and since I cant talk when Im crying my mom asked if he had gotten in an accident and I nodded my head. So they were nice and gave me a ride over there. His front end was compleatly smashed up and chris was standing outside. So I went over and talked to him when my parents parked. The man in the envoy barely had a scratch so that was good. But not good for bryan, his windshield was busted too because the airbags went off. He was so shooken up when I got there, and I started crying again. And we waited while his dad got there. His dad wasnt mad. And bryan didnt get charged, but that might be because his dad is a cop. We just went to his house after and watched movies all day cause there was nothing else to do and we didnt want to do anything else. But we did end up going for coffee later with amaya.

mmm sunshine

Nothing says we just booked our trip to mexico like going to Taco time right after....mmmmm

4 hour waits

Yesterday I think I had the worst day that Ive had in a while. The dog started barking at 2:30 in the morning and I wasnt about to go let her in becasue it was my sisters responsability. So I found a very very nice surprise of a big puddle of diarrea in her cage in the morning, it stunk up the whole house so I didnt get to have my breakfast, and was VERY cranky. I told my sister to clean it, but she wasnt really on that like white on rice. So daddy cleaned it up. And we left. Then I worked for those horrible 7 hours. Bryan came to pick me up after and we went to wendys for lunch, then off to jesses birthday party. He turned one and when we got there his whole face was covered in chocolate cupcake, it was adorable. We only stayed at Michelles house for about half an hour. Then we ran off to the tatoo parlour so bryan could get his. I sat there for about 4 hours. At least the guy there had a dvd player, so we just watched movies. Amaya was there too. And michelle stopped in. This is the actual finished product
And after it was done and he was happy. He said that he would take me anywhere I wanted for supper. So I said boston pizza and away we went. Andy was there too, so he told us to come by his new house later.
Andy, Alan Nathan and Nolan all live together now, its pretty sweet. And their house is pretty much a come and go as you like party.

Free supper never sounded so torturous

The other day my supervisor came up with the idea that if we get no price checks for the rest of the year and then every three months after that then we will get free supper from him. Yes... we get to all go out together as a big happy co working group. I figured I would just get them wrong when hes not around anyways, cause I dont like him, let alone spending time off of work going OUT with him. The other day he made me race him to put out stock too. He won, he was a "stock boy" for three years, what can you expect.

Yesterday this guy named Dana hit on me at work too, he was a touch annoying. He kept googly eying me all week and then yesterday he finally came beside me while im all squatty like and he asked me my name and then he didnt stop there either. He asked if I had a boyfriend how old I was blah blah blah. I just wanted him to leave me alone so I could do my job. He didnt stop googly eyeing me all the rest of that day either. Thank god I only had to work 7 hours.

Looks like a purple people eater to me

This weekend has been super fun. On.. friday night I had to work till 9 which sucked majorly. But then bryan came after work and picked me up as a surprise and we went to prime. It was really good, except bryan didnt like it cause it didnt have a happy ending. And he only like happy endings. Then saturday I had to work till 12, then bryan came and we went to Moxies for lunch and had the best soup in the entire world, broccoli and cheese, and a club sandwhich. Then we just went back to his house and I slept all day, until suppertime that is. Then we went to boston pizza. It was our pumkin carving party on saturday but we waited until the last second to pick up pumpkins. So we drove around everywhere after supper. And all we ended up getting was little minature pumkins that you were supposed to paint instead of carve. But bryan was desperate to carve them so we did, and they turned out just marvelous. I even painted one and it looks ridiculous, it has just a straight face, with blood dribbling out of its mouth, mwhaha. Then we roasted the seeds. They were smaller than the size of a sunflower seed, but they were still eatable. We put too much seasoning salt on them though, they were salty. ALSO guess what was on tv, Young frankenstein..... EHEHEHHEHE. Its just not halloween without Young frankenstein.
Then yesterday we went to a haunted house...... I got scared because there was some guy who creeped up behind me, my sister or bryan didnt bother saying anything, they just watched and laughed at me cause I jumped. grrr, it was pretty darn creepy though.
And tonight, im making bryan rent Hocus Pocus, and Im bringing The nightmare before christmas, and we're going to watch movies all night long.

2000+ calories

Today... Mr.CC was well........ himself, but this time, it benefitted ME! mwhahaha. It was some kind of childrens charity today so they had a whole bunch of food and drinks for the staff upstairs. Mr.CC only let me have two 15 minutes breaks instead of a whole half hour. But that was good, cause the first time that I got my break, I went up and had a donut and an ice tea. Then I got to go back and have black forest cake. Mwhaha. Then after my shift I figured I would make good use of the freaking $18 union fees I have to pay every paycheck. So I took an orange pop and a water, and carrot sticks with LOTS of dressing. During work when we were waiting for our stock, the funny reciever was there. Oh how I love when he works, cause he doesnt like my supervisor and he realizes how much of a CC he is too. And he always tells me that hes praying for me. And he was actually surprised I was still working for him. And he also asked me if my supervisor has thrown anything at me yet. I said no, and then laughed internally, cause I figured it would be mean to laugh since mr. CC was standing right there. The reciever guy called Mr.CC tiger too, cause his hair is fruity and streaked (it looks really bad) and then Mr.CC gets mad, and it just furthers mr. reciever man's point about him always freaking out.
Then bryan picked me up from work, we came home, had tir fry and e'claires mmmmmmmmm
Then played spyro and listened to britney spear's first album just like I used to in grade 5..... ahhh

Im sprouting warts

Im not really sprouting warts, im just really worried. I dont know why im so worried either. Its bryans first day driving his own standard car... I was with him all day and he was shaky. And now hes on his way home, and Im just worried. Worried sick.
But we had so much freedom today, it was great. After work, well even during work, bryan came and visited me. I dont think my CC supervisor was too happy about that, but o well hes never happy about anything, cause hes a Constipated Cow. Then he picked me up from work, we went to wendys to eat, and I ate a lot. And then we went back to his house, sat for a bit. Then he drove to his sisters all by himself, with a couple of stauls and a bunch of jerks of course but there none the less. And we ate candy and talked about christmas, and it was grand. Michelle even said she bought me a present, I feel so loved. THen we hit the town. We went to Michaels where I decided that im going to start a scrapbook hobbie, so I bought a WHOLE bunch of scarpbook stuff, then we went to zellers for more scrapbook stuff. And then we went to Superstore so I could buy sunglasses which I did. They were the cheaper ones since I wasnt going to pay $150 for the other ones I saw. OO which reminds me of my next story. Yesterday I had an hour in between jobs.. so I decided to go to the mall cause I had to deposit my cheque and such. But then I ran into Danny and Cliffy, and oh dear lord does Danny have money now. We went major shopping, well he did all the buy, i got to pick everything out for him though. Before I saw him though, he had just had his hair done, and his eyebrows waxed and he said he gave his hairstylist a $30 tip!! What a crazy. So he wanted sunglasses, so I picked him out these really nice ones that I thought looked good on him, that came to $150. Then he was cold so he wanted a jacket, so I picked one out, he bought it and the total was $120. Then I went to work and slaved for 4 hours and didnt even make $30.. my life rocks.

My oscar

When I first started watching Elizabethtown I came to a conclusion, its pretty much that same as Garden state. In fact it probably is "this years" garden state. They both involve some guy who has an internal struggle whos family member dies so he goes back to his home town, then he meets a girl and then they fall in love. But now Im going to give the little brown ginas to which movie I think had the best category... and it goes like this
The Gina goes too....
Best plot/movie: Elizabethtown
Best leading actor: Orlando bloom
Best leading female: Natalie portman (kirsten dunst was just a touch annoying for my tastes)
Best costumes: Elizabethtown
Best soundtrack: Garden state
Best Director: Cameron crowe (Elizabethtown)
Best song: hmmm I am undecided on that one. Its a tie between Come pick me up by Ryan adams (Elizabethtown) Or New slang by The Shins (Garden state)

Bring on the winter, just not snow

Yesterday was my date day so after I finished working bryan came to pick me up and we walked over to wendys, had a huge meal because I was absolutely dead tired and then we went to go see Elizabethtown. It was a good movie, and after that role, I actually like orlando bloom, cause he was a normal person and not an elf or pirate or whatever the hell else he's been. Plus I had my yogurt.... that always makes me happy, even though I could barely finish it cause I was so full from supper.
Then after the movie evan came and sat with me while I was waiting for bryan, and he has my sisters name for christmas so he was asking me if his ideas would be good and I told him they would.
I bought the boots that I so desperatly wanted today, oh they're so beautiful. But I also had to go back to the store 10 minutes later cause they over charged me $10 dollars... and they thought they wouldnt get away with it. And the girl that was running the till was being trained by the other guy that works there so it took almost three times the amount of time it would normally take. Then after that we went to an old ladies store that charges WAY to much for ugly clothes. My mom said that they have summer clothes there, and since they were closing out it would be super cheap. That wasnt exactly the case. But I did however find a nice necklace that could have been mine considering I had $40, but alas i did not, since I had just spent $100 on my boots. I hate having spending limits.
Then at work.... ugh. Theres these two guys that work there and they're suck idiots, first all they talk about it pot. Then they're just plain stupid, one of them took the grease pan out and took it to the dishwasher, the other one decided to turn it on and start using it. Next thing I know... there is grease ALL OVER the back of the store and not just a little bit, theres practically a whole lake. So then they move all the greasy stuff forward so that theres no room to walk. I hate them so very very much.

Its a kind of magic

We got our puppy yesterday, shes the darnest cutest thing. And I think I actually got her potty trained now, since Im the one who had to take her outside 5 million times, in the freezing cold, cause the thing doesnt know how to go downstairs yet so I have to carry her down the deck and on to the grass.


So today my parents left me and went fishing. Bryan didnt pass his drivers test, but who does the first time, lol. I know I wont.... He picked me up anyways, we went back to his house. And then we went to the mall where I was hoping to find some sunglasses. Its a lot harder to find sunglasses and summer clothes this time of year that I thought. Then we went out for supper, then to the petstore to get mr warts some food since he hasnt eaten for over a week (mr warts is my frog)
Then we went to see Domino, which is the best movie ive seen in a while. And bryans sister was at the movies too, but they went to see the 40 year old virgin. Then they gave me a ride home :)

Life is good

Yesterday I lied and said that I couldnt work at wendys, because I wanted to go out for supper with bryan and for a movie instead. And im glad I did, he bought me flowers "just because". It was perfect, but embarassing because I had to walk around with them, and we went to earls for supper and I swear, half of our grad class was there, including my cousin. But O well. Then after we saw the Wallace and Gromit movie, it was so good. And the mini movie before it was even better cause it was the madagascar penguins.
And I got paid yesterday and I actually kind of have money now, money to spend I mean. Cause I was never rolling in that.

It tastes like special K

Today I did nothing really.... except go to shoppers drug mart with my mom and I looked at all the halloween stuff.... it was awesome, they have this huge dragon mask but its $50! I dont know who would pay that much for a mask for there kids........... damn those rich people.
We went there to mail my passport stuff back... cause it didnt go through the first time. Im just praying that it works this time, cause I need it for february.
Then we went to pick up my sister and then I had to work. Very uneventful really,

Oh but yesterday I bought my bedspread, its gorgeous, but I dont get it for another week or so because they have to order the right size from Lethbridge.

I somehow cant believe this. Last night I was extreamly upset. I finally had had it with amanda always getting everything her little heart desires while I sit back and get absolutely nothing. She got a brand new bed because hers was uncomfortable plus a new bedspread and sheets to go along with it, yeah and guess who got her old bed. I was the one with the single bed in the first place... but o well. Then when her band trip is planning on going to london, my parents said yes, without even thinking about it really. And all I remember is back when I was in grade 10, I begged and pleaded day and night for three months to go to japan for a school trip and I was shot down the first time I even mentioned it. Then amanda decides that she wants a dog.... guess what we're going to get next week... thats right, our dog. Plus she gets all the fixings all paid for as well.

Today after work my moms buying me a bedspread to make me feel better.

Tonight I went over to bryans for supper and then after when he was cleaning up, I watched The Twilight zone.... and jessica simpson was in it, and she got turned into a doll, it was kinda funny and strange.

I had to wake up this morning again at 5 so I could work at 6, it sucks, especially cause im stuck with my weirdo supervisor for 5 hours. God... eventually Im just going to snap, hes just THAT annoying. Hes worse than a CC when they are two. And his laugh... dont get me started on that, its so fucking stupid that I just want to knock him out everytime he does laugh.

After work though bryan came over for lunch and then got hooked on my sims game. But I eventually got him off of it, and we went to the travel agent. All I need to do is pick my day, then go in and pay for it. I cant wait. Then we went to the mall and I couldnt find a good bedspread, Im in dire need for a new one, cause I have my parents old one which is at least as old as me, if not more. I dont want to think about what has happened on, or beneath it..... ick. Then we went to bryans.

Yay I didnt have to work today which is good, it gives me a break from my annoying supervisor.... the man is insane. This morning I went out for breakfast with my parents, and now I have all day to play the new Sims we bought because my sister isnt home to stop me. Mwhahahha.

Yesterday me and bryan had a movie day. First we went and saw Madagascar, for my third time. It was only a toonie movie so it was a pretty good deal. Then after that we went and saw corpse bride, which was awesome. And we got free corpse bride mini posters, it was cool.
Then we went around to King of trade, I actually found a dance hall crashers cd and made bryan buy it for me. Then we went to the tattoo parlors to see how much his tattoo would cost. Then his sisters fiancee came and picked us up and we went to their house for supper. Michelle told me all about her wedding plans, and the song and everything. And we talked about vacations. And today... in about half an hour we're going to a travel fair.
On friday I got off work early too, so me bryan and my parents went out to Joeys for supper, then after that my dad caught frogs at work and gave them to us. So now I have three pet frogs in my room, but I have to buy them some food, they havnt eaten in a while.
And today Im actually making bryan get a hair cut, oh its going to be so exciting since its so long, and he almost has a mullet in the back. Then we're going to my aunts for supper tonight.

A chicken and an egg are lying in bed. The chicken is smoking a cigarette with a satisfied smile on its face. The egg is frowning and looking a bit pissed off. The egg mutters to no one in particular, ''Well, I guess we answered THAT question!''

Im dreading tomorrow. I have to work 7 hours at superstore and then 6 more at wendys. I hope hope hope that today was payday at wendys because I need money desperately for bryans birthday present which I have to get in a week or so.
Yesterday I had to work 9 hours, that was bad enough. And the girl that I work with is kinda a bitch. Either she doesnt like me, or shes just a snob altogether. Shes probably about thirty some, really skinny and mean. She doesnt tell me when shes going on break, or when shes leaving. And when I got there I asked her if we got lots of stock in, and shes just like "not much" then walked away. ..... And yesterday the Icky girl that always made out with her icky boyfriend at crescent heights got hired. But she works as a pharmacy assistant.... which really isnt fair, and just plain not cool, cause I dont like her.

I am deeply DEEPLY upset..... grrr. Today I had to work 12 hours, STRAIGHT. No sitting down, barely any breaks, and it was just too much for me to handle. Especially when Im grumpy and didnt get enough sleep. Its the whole sleep thing, it gets me every time. I think working at one place for 9 hours when you have nothing to do but dust and occasionally fix things out of place is just.... too much for me to take. Im going crazy

Yesterday was the first day I have ever had to have an I.V. my allergies got so bad that my mom took me to the emergency room and they hooked me up with a thousand wires, it was kind of scary I couldnt stop shaking. First they tried putting the wires in to my left arm, but the vein was too far deep under my skin, plus the big huge bumps I hadall over my arm made it nearly impossible to find them, so then after that pain of her poking around inside of my arm with a needle, she took it out and did the same thing for other arm. Those things really hurt. Then after I was injected with all these steriods, I felt reallly funny, I was so lightheaded and almost non existant, it felt cool. I was there hooked up to the I.V. for at least an hour. Now my arms look like im a heroin addict or something, with needle marks, and the odd bruise. My feet are worse though, they're just one big bruise.So I got today off of work, took about 10 pills already, and went shopping and bought a really cool shirt and a sarong for mexico.

If its not one thing its another. Im sitting here in my pajamas when I should be at work, only to have very extreamly discomforting hives. Yes thats right, Im covered in calamine lotion, seriously itchy.... and feel like killing myself. It started last night when I was at wendys, I saw red little dots poking up all over my hands and arms, and my feet were itchy. When I got home last night, my feet were just covered in little red/white dots. And then THIS morning, my whole freaking body is one giant dot. I look like im turning into a warty frog or a witch, or have some type of extreme chicken pox. I went to the doctors this morning too. He told me that im allergic to the antibiotics that they gave me a week ago..... and it could last up to three weeks. so thats just great, now I have TWO problems to fix, cause my bladder infection hasnt gone away yet either.

YAY.... I get to start working at wendys again tonight, dont I feel special. O well... at least now I will have enough to buy bryan a decent birthday present soon. And save enough for college next year for sure. AND maybe a car.... but Im not getting my hopes up too high

AHHH I am so unbelivably screwed, screwed like a screw. Tomorrow I have to wake up at 6 in the morning, just so I can go to superstore and open the department I work in ALL BY MYSELF and then stay there, do everything for 8 hours ALL BY MYSELF. Im sure I can handle it though considering its only my 4th shift and everything. Why must I be so trustworthy, maybe I should just steal condoms or pills or something, that will teach them.
But at least after the 8 hours I can go to bryans house, and then to his grandmas for a nice turkey dinner.

Thank god superstore has a good radio station playing, or else I dont know if I could stay sane there for ..... however long I plan on staying. Its decided, work makes you bitter, take me, im a prime example, well not now, give me a couple of weeks and Ill be bitter, the summer was just too good for me to be bitter about work stuff.
But anyways, I better work there for long because I dont want to be in debt for the next two years when I eventually start school. Sadly its going to be school here. So it wont be too expensive, but its still going to be at least 10 000 which I must make this year or I will curl up in a ball and die because my goal of the year would not have been completed.

Yesterday I went over to Bryans grandmas for supper, it was nice. Even though we barely found anything to do it was still cool hanging out with bryan calvin and chloe. Then I was up all night. Not fun AT ALL
And I went to go see broken flowers today with bryan. I like that movie, it wasnt the best but it wasnt bad. It was as my dad puts it " another one of those low budget films that you like"
Then after the movie there was nothing to do, thats one thing about holidays, you cant do anything and thats the only time that bryan gets off of work. We really need to learn how to drive.
But thankfully my dad picked us up and we went for chinese food, that cheered me up.

Yay I finally have a job!! This time I know it will be better, at leat im hoping. I work at superstore now, and its in the Over the counter drugs/ pharmacy section, which is perfect if I ever changed ym mind back to wanting to become a pharmacy technician again. But Im thinking Ill just stick to travel, thats my plans for now. I went in this morning, it ws the first resume I dropped off, and the guy gave me an interview on the spot. So now I have to go in tomorrow at 1 and have the "orientation" thing. He also gave me this big book of saftey things to fill out, that was a bitch to do, but o well, its done now. Im so excited, even though its not full time.

Today was my first day working at argos it was only a three hour shift, but it was enough for me to decide that its crap. I started off hostessing today. All I did pretty much was follow some girl around the whole time, which was really boring. And she only let me do things for the last hour or so, even then I was bored, cause there was NOTHING to do. She just ran off all over the place leaving me to do nothing. And the people there arnt friendly at all, they're all grumpy. It makes me almost want to run back and cry to wendy's to take me back. I would feel pretty bad quitting now though cause my mom aready bought me about $200 worth of clothes yesterday.
*whimper* I dont know what to do.
Not only that, but the girl that was supposed to sit down with me and do a schedule, left before me, so now I dont know when Im supposed to work again.

I got a job at Argos today. Its a nice little restaurant that my parents always go to. So now.. I am going to be a waitress. I also went to Reitmans and they said that I could possibly work part time too. I'll be getting all my phone calls tomorrow, and then my life will be settled till next year. But at least now I'll have some sort of income. I hope they pay good, plus good tips from all the old people. :)

Ever faint in a Subway bathroom before? I have. On saturday we went to get movies and then go for supper, I was extreamly dehydrated in the first place, then we walked 10 minutes in desert hot weather. And all the stores felt like they had no air conditioning, so I got really woosy. But bryan got a cab back to his house for us, and we ate on his deck which was nice. Then yesterday we were gonna go out to all the pet stores.... but no such luck cause his friend was being a bastard.
I havnt had a call back yet :( well I have actually.... but no such luck for the position I wanted. So all we're doing today is handing out resumes.... yay my favorite thing to do!

Doctors are useless

I came up with the perfect idea today, while Im handing out resumes tommorow, why not hand one in to all the pet stores. I want to work at a pet store soooo bad. Plus then I would be able to get the terrarium I want for discount price! Plus all the lizards, ooooo it would be just like heaven.
Tomorrow my moms finally taking me to the doctors as well.

Heres the thing, If I stay here to go to school I get to do this really cool program where I can go to mexico for a semester, plus stay for free and perhaps have a job. But living in calgary would be fun too... even though I would eventually become at least $20 000 in debt. They're both 2 year programs for travel and tourism, cause I've finally decided that that is what I want to do instead of pharmacy. For the pharmacy program, its way too much of a hassle to get into, they only have 24 seats and you have to go through a whole screening process.... blah blah, its just not worth me going to calgary 3 million times for them to tell me that they havnt chosen me to qualify for their course. This is just easier, and something im way more interested in.

Tomorrow is mine and Bryan's 9 month "anniversary" Its kind of exciting, seeing as how i've never been with someone this long. But its fun, and exciting, and Im convincing him to buy a bearded dragon for us, but he would be keeping it because my parents wont let me have it here.

Yesterday me, amanda and bryan went to the pet store and I saw the cutest lizards in the world, there were three of them, and they were all standing against the water dish in a circle with their claws in the dish just looking at each other. I wanted to open the cage and grab all of them and give them a big hug. They were called ornate curly tailed lizards and they were really pretty and colorful. I want one of those too, if I save up enough, ill buy the terrarium, and lights, and buy them, since they were cheaper then most of the other lizards.
Soon we'll probably be getting a puppy though since our fence will be fully up by the end of tomorrow.
We also went to see Red Eye yesterday, that was quite a good movie, so is.... The 40 year old virgin and the new Deuce bigalow. I've seen a lot of movies lately...

Edmonton had kinda lost its appeal. It's only been three years since I last went, and it feels like I've gone there every year for two years. So this time, there really wasnt anything to do. There wasnt anything I really needed to buy, or anything I really found to buy that totally excited me. All I got was two pairs of jeans, pajama pants and a shirt. Nothing from american eagle which sucked.
But we also went to IKEA and that was a blast, I love going there and just looking at all the showroom thingys. It was my parents first time too and they were in aw. As was I. I bought a picture frame with lizard pictures. I love it, cause it has a picture of a madagascar day gecko :)

Yesterday was bryans first day at his new job, and not only that but he injured himself. It wasnt as severe as cutting a WHOLE finger off, he just happened to grind his nail and part of the skin all the way down to the bone. Thankfully I didnt have to see it, I just heard about it and saw the bandages. Otherwise I may have puked, cause it sounded really sick.

Monday Im handing out my resume to perkins, and making my mom take me to the doctors, I have serious problems that need to be checked out.

Yesterday I went over to bryans and when I phoned my mom to come pick me up from the mall no one was home. So I wandered around the mall for a bit, then called again and my sister was home, but she didnt know the number. So I made her look it up in the phone book, then call mom to come pick me up. While I was waiting I figured I'd buy a magazine to bring to my aunts that night because her house is so dreadfully boring. So I bought a cosmo. Dear lord... when I brought it to her house and I told her what magazine I was reading you would have thought I was acting out everything in there right on her living room sofa by the way she was yelling at me. She told me that Im too young to be reading such a dirty magazine and that that magazine even made HER blush......
geez.. she wouldnt stop giving me a hard time, so my mom came over and looked at it, but didnt say much.

Then later that night, after the yelling at me incident a couple nights ago about me sitting at the table I made sure I sat at the counter. So after my supper my other grandma and grandpa came over and so did my cousin. I was having my cake and my aunt told me I wasnt allowed to sit in my chair anymore cause she had other guests....
It made me agrivated.

Today.... I nearly died. no joke. I was extrealy close to the point where I was so hot that all my organs were just about to shut down.

We took a drive to Writing on stone Park. It was a two hour drive on a gravel road. Then when we got there the bathrooms were absolutely horrid and covered in millions of flies. We had KFC. and then we got volunteered to go on this stupid tour to look at all the native drawings. It was a two hour tour, in 40 degree hot weather. And the tour could have honestly taken 10 minutes. But no, the stupid tour woman talked in each place for 20 minutes about absolutely nothing. It was pointless and I was getting very angry and annoyed and ready to scream... .or throw up from sun stroke.
I had to wear a funny hat, bryan and my mom made me.
Then we came back and the house smelled like strong food, but it was good... I dont even know what it was called, something french. It was just like a stew, but clear.
Then me and bryan got attacked by aleya, it was fun.

Wow this weekend has been the most adventurous, and fun, weekend that I've had in a while. Rafting is awesome, im so glad I went, and Im also glad that I actually did the lower part of the canyon with all the major rapids. I wouldnt not want to do it, now that I have. Bryan's parent's and their friends were so much fun to be around. And the best part of it was that I was with bryan of course. It was so weird going on vacation with someone other than my parents, and staying in a hotel with them too. I got a whole bed to myself cause I wasnt allowed to sleep with bryan while his parents were in the same room in the next bed. Our room was right next to the waterslide too, which was something to do.

But there was a downfall... chris. The dumbest thing I have met in a while. He was a true "himbo" as bryan puts it. When we were going down the lower canyon, he did just whatever he wanted. He kept paddling and shoving the boat down to get more splash.... it was great just watching him be an idiot. He was one of bryans mom's friend's boyfriend.

During rafting we got to actually go swimming down a rapid, it was kinda acary cause you cant swim sideways, its REALLY hard, so you think that your going to keep going and not hit the beach, but I did luckily, and I didnt drown at all. We could have swam through a big rapid at the lower canyon too, but I didnt want to, it looked too scary.

We drove back yesterday, and then just spent the night in calgary. Me and bryan went shopping at the Chinook mall too, and I bought a book and a shirt. And bryan bought a huge bag of candy worth about $12. And bryans mom lent me a book too, so ive got a lot of reading to do, cause I still havnt finished About a boy.

Last night, bryan snuck up to sleep with me at night, it was nice, but I didnt get a lot of sleep cause it was hot and kinda uncomfortable, but still nice. Then we took the bus home at 7 this morning and I came home and slept, and read. Now im just waiting for the relatives (dont know whos all coming so I dont know who to name) But its party time in a week, for my aunts 25th anniversary...... so a shit load of people will be here to bother me.

I failed chemistry... all I can say is.. take that mom and dad, I told you I would fail! Im not sad about it, cause I honestly didnt try too hard, I wanted to drop out in the first week, the teacher was a cunt, and the class was just horrible. Anyone who understands chemistry... kudos to you.
Either than that I saw The Island last night, and surprisingly enough, thats a really good movie. A lot of action.

Tomorrow I get my passport pictures taken, im so excited, cause that means its one step closer to mexico, yay!!

I want to become a travel agent. I want to travel.

Wow... Ive had one boring day, but guess what. I have successfully picked out all my furniture for my future apartment, yes thats right, in less than two years I will be living on my own, in my own house. So why not start planning now. I figured that if Im living with bryan we will only need to pay $2100 incl taxes, to get all the stuff listed below

IKEA:
- blue loveseat
- blue armchair
- footstool
- tv stand
- cd tower
- dvd stand
- 2 sidetables
- coffee table
- 4 dinner chairs
- dinner table
- small bookcase
- 2 shelving units
- computer desk
- startbox cookware set
- floor lamp
- rug

SEARS:
- comforter set
- 16pc black and green dinnerware set
- 45pc bamboo cutlery set

thats what I was doing all day today... online shopping. Plus chores, like shoveling a huge mound of dirt on to our part of our yard. Then my mom decided that it would take us a week, so she hired a bobcat. Then we had to move a gazillion boxes all over the house. What a productive day!

I am never going on a picnic ever again!!! Yesterday bryan had the day off so we decided that we would go swimming for a bit, go grocery shopping for food, then go for a picnic. Well that turned out to be just splended let me tell you. After the swimming, it was windy... so you can imagine what my hair looked like while we were shopping for food. Excellent!!! Its never been to poofy in all my life. So then we walk back to bryans house and pack all the stuff, take the bus and walk to police point park. Good god... it was an hours walk, in the heat, covered in sweat and stinky bug spray, with a backpack full of food and a huge blanket........... I was grumpy. Plus after the wind died down, then I got eaten. Eaten Alive!!! AHAHAHAHAH

I really should clean my room today cause it is a compleate hurricane disaster site, but I am waaaay too lazy. In fact I feel like sleeping some more. If it wasnt for my damn cell phone alarm going off I probably would still be asleep. I dont know what else im going to do today.

O dear where in heavens should I begin?? Its been a really long time since I posted so I will give full details... well most... about my wonderful 10 or so day long vacation

Vernon visit:
So I leave on thursday and drive 10 hours with my parents all the way to vernon. I stayed at lorel's house and it was ok, except for the constant having to play with aleya. On friday we spent the day in kelowna and I did some major shopping. I bought a picture frame, a Jack skellington doll a tube top, capri pants, a black shirt, and jean shorts. I love going all out on shopping sprees and not having to worry about money, which is a rare case... in my case. So then on saturday I went to the beach with ebbie for a while and then we also hitched up her kayaks and went kayaking. Then on sunday me and K went to the waterslides and slided it up... ooo it was great. That night we went to the lodge for supper to the pasta garden and it was really good. That basically concludes my vernon visit. It was too short for my liking, I wished I could have stayed for a week longer, then I could have gone to the the beach more, cause I miss it.

Calgary visit:
Me and bryan got up early in the morning to go on the bus only not to be able to sit together cause there were a gazillion people that had already been on there from god knows where. So once we reached brooks, luckily the guy that Bryan was sitting with left, and I stole his spot, so we finally got to sit together. Then we got to calgary and went grocery shopping for our weeks worth of food. That night we went to the stampede. Bryan doesnt like the spinny rides so we didnt get to go on most of the ones I wanted to go on, but we still went on tons. And we watched some fire works, then when we got home, we realized that we didnt stay for all the good ones, that went on for quite a while. Then the next day, wednesday we went to the zoo. It was fun, we got drinking buddy straws and I got a shark tooth necklace. It started raining right as we were leaving too which wasnt fun, cause we still got wet. That night we went to the ghetto movie theatre, the "cheap one" and saw the interpreter. Holy cow... the prices for movies in calgary is double of what we pay here. But at this cheap movie theatre, we got both tickets, and popcorn and pop and a chocolate bar for only $15, what a deal! And then thursday was warped tour day!!!! The best day ever!!! We woke up early at 6 because I had to do bryans hair, which took 2 hours. My masterpiece, his liberty spikes lasted all day which was awesome. Except by the end of the day, they were grey because it was really dusty there, and of course... he had to mosh. So we got to race city speedway at about 10.... and guess who we just happened to run into... yes thats right I got summoned by mike.. who came with stephan, josh and sunshine, AND not only stephan, but Angela as well... All those days of stalking at bonanza and it was exactly who I thought it was! grrrr At least we got in without waiting at the back though, cause we just budded in with them, it was fun. The whole days was fun, me and bryan went up the the epitaph booth twice each, to get a whoel bunch of free stuff. And he won a bad religion skate board and I didnt hear the end of it ALL DAY. We saw horrorpops, Billy talent, The unseen, kiros, matchbook romance, Armor for sleep! fall out boy, and lets not forget the best... dropkick murphys!! they were the last, and they were the best. Its too bad Millencolin or Motion city soundtrack didnt play calgary, o well. I still beat bryan out of the millencolin sticker, mwhahaha. It was sooo much fun, I cant wait till next year, im practically already counting down! The next day we lounged around for the morning... and had the house to ourselves.... Ill leave it at that. Then at around 2 we decided to work up enough energy to bike down to Eau claire market and shop, they have really cool shops in there, but I had no money, so I just bought bryan a hemp necklace and Ice cream. Although I wanted a book, a bunch of jewlery, and belts and pins. They had at least four worldly stores that I wanted to by so much stuff at. Then we had to bike back super super fast because we had to go out to the Imax... and we didnt realize until later that the last show was at 7:15. But we made it and we saw Charlie and the chocolate factor. Tim burton is my idol, I swear to god I love every single movie he puts out. Plus it was on the Imax... man that thing is incredible, its basically the size of three regular movie screens. You basically feel like your IN the movies. And boy do I sound like I never get out..... mainly because I dont. I love big cities soooooo much. After the movie we picked up bryans step dad and went out for supper downtown calgary at 10! We were done at about 12.... and had to walk 2 blocks to the car.... It was lively I tell you, and soo awesome. That was the last night there. Then I came home today at 2. Me and bryan got to get on the bus first, we were afraid that we wouldnt get to sit with each other, cause there were so many people. But just in our luck, there was two buses and we got to go first on the the second one! Then we got home and decided to end it by going out for supper here and then to a movie.
Now im home, and there is so much food in my house..... you would have thought my parents threw a party or something and now have enough food left over to feed an army....
They went crazy on the desserts too........ yes!

Well.... I gave up for the long lost search for the perfect skin... grrr. I went to see The Perfect Man tonight and I got inspired to blog tonight which is lame. Since when did people start blogging on movies. And since when should hilary duff do anything thats cool. It was a good movie though quite enjoyable for one of those... I feel romantic and kinda sappy need to get away from reality movies. I was with bryan when I saw it.

Oooo hay I think its raining. That sucks, I wanted to go swimming at an outdoor pool tomorrow, because I want to get a tan. I bought a new bathing suit today for it too. I want to get away from the pastyness which makes me look horrible. I cant wait to go to vernon, and go to the beach, it will be soo much fun.
Man... I actually got mel's number again today from kurtis.... and now I cant even call her because this weekend is my cousins wedding, this week is her grad.... then im leaving. Good god it will have to wait another 2 months.

I want to go shopping, we're going to kelowna for a day next week, so I guess ill go then.... old navy and american eagle here I come.

So long

Well... its been a while since my last post cause I've just been soo incredibly busy since then. I had my grad, and K came down, then three days laster, I took the bus 14 hours all the way to vernon for Kal's grad. It was splendid, our chem free was the best, but Kal beat us with the banquet and ceremonies. I got to see everyone again, and I got to see the school again. It was almost final for me this time. Even though from now on im probably going to go to vernon every summer like I did when i was little. Along with two weeks somewhere rather exotic... starting next year. And today was the end of my driving lessons, a couple more hours and I think I will be good to go. Hopefully. Man. I still cant believe it, I only have one more exam on wednesday and Im done.... forever. High school at least, but thats probably the toughest thing to go through, and longest.

AHHH Im soo stoked for this friday. I cant belive im actually graduating. But trust me, its been more nerve wracking than it has been exciting. Im still organizing the ride part. And all this stress is causing me to break out, which is making me stress out more because I now have breakouts, so its all some viscious circle that leaves me ugly and paniked.
Oh and not only an I excited beacuse I get to dress up all pretty but I also get to see my mortal enemy from grade 3 who I havnt seen or heard of for ... 9 years! Is that not the perfect way to leave high school?
Im even slightly looking forward to tomorrows church service and hopefully I dont trip on my heels or do something equally embarrassing, cause I always think that Im going to.

Words of advice for life:

- It takes 42 muscles to frown but only 6 to reach over and deck somebody

- You have to remember that the really really truely wonderful things are the ones that almost kill you

- Smile, things could be worse

knock on wood

Wow... I think im still in shock... yesterday I was peacefully having a nap in my room and my mom came in my room to ask me what I wanted for supper cause it was only me and her home. Then after that... she asked me if its time to start thinking about birth control. yeaaaaah.... first she asked me how "intimate" me and bryan were getting. It was the weirdest conversation i've had with my mom since.. well I hit puberty I think.

That was a awkward experience but I think im going to bring it up again soon, because nothing really got solved or anything.

Is it to early to start worrying about spider veins... cause I think im starting to get them on my ankle.
How sad is that, I have grad in less than a week... and Im already worrying about getting old and spider veins. god.... I already have stretch marks and cellulite, why not tack on spider veins at a mere age of 17.

I hate being mad/ depressed for no reason what so ever. I think its just stress, but its getting to me. We had the stupid church service rehersal today and that was a waste of my time. I dont even want to go to it, Id rather do something other than listen to our retarded "grad choir" sing and do other worthless crap. wow... im bitter.
I still dont have a ride to grad either, which is lame cause its next week. Im thinking of taking a limo..... but I dont know if that will all work out cause everyone probably already has a ride and it needs to hold 8 people.
Im freaking out...................... gah

swallow my doubt, turn it inside out

Its funny how a majorly upset stomach can make you remember certain events about last summer. But to further my now confirmed research. Dr.pepper before eating something barbecued does not go over well. We went over to bryan's sister michelles house tonight and it was a lot of fun. Jessie is so cute. Jessie is bryans nephew who is only 7 months old.
Tomorrow is our 6 month anniversary.

And man do I still have a crap load of things to do before grad

Today bryan surprised me by coming home early. Its amazing how much I missed him and he was only gone a day and a half. It was sad. I went over to his house at 3, and just got home... and its about 11 ish. I just couldnt stand to be away from bryan for any longer. Even though im sure your getting sick just listening to this.
We rented mallrats tonight too. I wanted to get team america but noo... besides the fact that it was rated 18a, It was all out of course. But mallrats is SUCH a good movie. I love it.
Tomorrow... me and bryan get to go to his sisters house for a barbecue.... that should be interesting, but at the same time im deathly afraid.

This sucks..... its may long weekend.... and im stuck at home. Im going to be miserable, or if not me, I will do a rain dance and make it so no one else has fun. Yes I admit it I am selfish.

carnival time

Ladies and gentlemen. I have done the unthinkable, gone to extreames, and now, I can cross one thing off of my to do list. I have gone blonde. Yes you heard me, I dyed my hair blonde today. And I love it. My mom hates it, I had to lie to her to get it done, I said I was going "light brown" but noo.... I AM BLONDE.
Im going to have to get used to this. It looks like they transplanted shakira's hair on to my scalp.

So many times before, what are you afraid of

Today I learned the weirdest thing. This guy that I hang out with, one of bryans friends (who totally looks like a sex god) Is going out with my mortal enemy from grade 3!!! Yes thats right.... she always knows how to pick them I guess. I hated her with ALL my guts though, because she liked cody, and he liked her. And she was blonde, and smiled funny, and was a "figure skater". If she ends up going camping with him, and us.... O dear, I just might keel over and die from irony poisoning.

Oh I also had a weird day because I saw two business guys ..... riding a bike. One was in black, with black slicked hair. The other was in just a blue dress shirt, and tie, talking on his cell phone all while riding a bike.

Omg I cant believe I am fucking done. Im soooooo glad cause one more class I would have either had a complete unnecessary spaz. Or I would have killed someone, or maybe various people........... GRRR. 3 1/2 hours for 5 days... gah. But at least tonight when I did the test and passed. I got free sunglasses, and they have a tag on them that says that they're worth $80! O yeah baby, im just gonna bling it out in my expensive sunglasses. They would probably be the third most expensive article of clothing/accessories I have! wow.. Im sad.
Today me and bryan went around and picked up travel brochures. We're going to MEXICO! Next spring hopefuly, when I am 18... I cant wait.

Noooooooo holy dear, I felt like shooting myself in the head tonight. Im dead serious. I just got home from the BORINGEST three and a half hours that I have ever had to go through!! Drivers Ed...................... NEVER AGAIN. After this week I will hopefully never have to encounter anything like it ever again!

Demons are a girls best friend

O god O god O god..... I have a problem, or at least I think there is a problem with me or something. It could also be because Im sick... hmmm So heres the problem. Is it normal to look at someone when you have a boyfriend. Its not just a casual look, its a ... looking forward to go to school to look at this person... kind of thing
I think It will pass... but I just tend to worry myself sometimes
Besides that I've been stuck at home on monday and tuesday because of this nasty cold that I have

Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free

How many emo kids does it take to screw in a light bulb?
- none cause they all want to sit in the dark and cry
or
- two, one to change it and one to write a song about how much they miss the old one

Lunacy

OOOOO man..... was today fun, well only a portion of about 15-20 minutes. I went over to bryans house after work... then we walked an hour all the way downtown to get his second nipple pierced. So we did that.. and it was quick and we had a lot of hours to kill before we had to go down to Kin coulee for "grad activities" So we had supper... and I got a call from mike. He said hes going to the punk show later and we should meet him there.
So we did... and nathan was there too.... then just guess who decides to show up in his green t-shirt and WHITE pants (my guess is its his "summer wear") Yes... that is right STEPHAN
Dear god... I almost died of a heart failure. But it was damn near perfect.
After that.. amaya came and picked us up to go to kin coulee... and it was sad, and cold.

I went to trukkers again today with Bryan and dave. It was greaaat. I had so much coffee again.... but its good. We went during our spare before lunch, and we made dave skip just so he could drive us. Then we went to the pool hall during lunch like always, but no one but us three was there this time.
Gah... I hate when things dont work out like tonight... its all because of my stupid lame phone...... I got a new card today... and it says my account balance is $45.... but it wont let me do anything.

My life when I am 25 (to full detail)


- I will be married to Bryan
-He will be a chef, who specializes in japanese cuisine
-We will have gone to Japan for a year or more while me and K teach english and he studies food
- I will be a pharmacy technician who makes $20 an hour
- I will have a cat
- We will have a dog named angelo
- We will own a super nice house, that is worth a lot
- We will own a restaurant that will be very high class
- I will live right next to krystal and ebbie in their super nice houses
- I will have enough will power to go running every morning with the dog
- We will go on a vacation every year for two weeks
- I will have good style and a huge closet with lots of clothes
- I would have backpacked across europe a couple years before

The day is the first day of the rest of your life, remember

Yesterday bryan came over after schooll cause I wanted to show him the show home, and then we were going to go see a movie after. So during spare, we go over to his house. Then as we were walking back to meet my parents at the school he was soo nervous cause it was the first time he was going too meet my dad.
So when we got home he said it was the longest 10 minute car ride of his life, lol. We just played ping pong in the basement for an hour, and watched part of the matrix. Plus he went through all my stuff in my room.... like photoalbums, and sketchbooks. Thank god he didnt go through my journal though... not that he would have known what was going on, or who the people were. It would just be wierd.
When I brought up the fact that we were going out for supper with my parents... he started whimpering and begging me to change the plans and just make them drop us off at the mall... because he was scared and shy......... it was soo adorable. We saw the show home, then went to the mall, had chinese food, and then went grad shopping. I decided the acessories that are going to go with my awesome dress. Plus I saw a skirt im going to make my mom buy me tomorrow. And hopefully capri's I saw at le chateau.
Then we went downtown and saw The Life Aquatic which is a really good movie.

Dancing in the dark

Man.... I want to be rich when Im older, no... I NEED to be rich when Im older. Or I will marry someones whos rich.... But then again who "wont" do that...
So I went to see this show home tonight... and I nearly died, it was soooooo absolutely gorgeous. And its only a couple house down from mine, literally. I think of my house, then I think whats down the street, yesh. I was looking at ONE of the vases on the dresser... just out of the way, nothing spectacular, and just that alone was $80.
But wow.... you should have seen that house, it was like nothing else in the world that I have even been to before.
Downstairs they had a games room that you could win, so I made chrissy enter it for me. Just think, I could "have" my own $4000 pool table plus a $800 foozeball and $900 air hockey table when I move out. That would be awesome. Beyond Awesome actually.
I'm going to "win" a kinsman dream home when I am older.... or at least have one that looks like it should be. That is my new life goal.

Finally woken

Ive realized that I've grown up. I m no longer the person I used to be in grd 10, or even last year for that matter. I dont want to grow up, because I like the person I used to be. Back then I never cared what I would be doing one year from now, because I already knew. I knew I would be going to school, even if it weren't in vernon, it was still somewhat certain. Now... what AM I going to do next year?
I gave my two weeks notice yesterday, so now I no longer have a job. I have enough money to last me a little longer, but then Ill just make some in the summer. Once I learn how to drive well.... thats the end there, I definately wont be the same person I was last year or in grd 10. I dont want this year to be over, but then I do.
I know that once school is done and bryan moves to calgary, it'll be over. I just can't do long distance relationships no matter how much I care for him now.
I just dont know what will happen.

jerk it out

I've come to the conclusion that I have really bad PMS. I can actually now tell when its going to be that time of the month cause Im sooo damn moody. I feel sorry for the people who have to put up with me, no joke.
Yesterday I woke up at 5:30 to stand in line for tiger hockey tickets. It was insane, there were 15 people in front of us and only 46 tickets available.
From there, we went downtown and bryan got his nipple pierced. hhahaha.

I feel sick and I dont want to go to school tomorrow but I know I must considering I have two tests to write... grr.
But I do get my report card on friday, who knows how that will look.

And I'm holding on

darlings.... its been forever since I last updated. I've been in an uninsperational fix lately. But Im curing that with dedicating all my saturdays to painting and writing for the next little while.
So K came down for sprong break and it was grand. Friday and saturday night I had to give up my room cause Cindy was down from calgary as well and she got my room. Saturday K came, and we went to aunty julies for supper, then had a camp out in the computer room.
Sunday was supper at my grandma's and then we went to the show downtown. That was super fun, and krystal enjoyed herself as well... ahahahha. The Hitchers are a really good band, and I got the poster from off the wall. I had to steal bryan one too.
Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday we hung out and went to the mall, and downtown and stuff. And also went to trukkers one of those days with Tristan and Nicki. hahah....
Wednesday night krystal, bryan, mike and me all went out for supper. We went to montana's and then decided to go see GuessWho after that and of course we invited Tristan to come along. Since it was rather early in the night after that, we did the greatest thing. We went to Tim Hortons, thought up a scheme and then.... We all egged stephans house. It was soooo much fun. When we went to the 7-11 bryan called me his sister and then kept feeling me up right at the till. We got eggs and a really nasty looking sandwich that ended up on his driveway. mwhahahah
Then as we were making our getaway, off on the streets are melissa, jessica, michelle and shaina, all drunk. .... and annoying. Then we went to the teepee and goofed around for a really long time till mike got a call from melissa that the cops had just stopped them blah blah blah. So we went back to Tim Hortons and had a party.
Thursday night was just as fun. We picked up mike from work. He wanted red bull so we went and got him some, then went and picked up bryan. From there, we went to the mohawk and picked up Nathan and his friend cause nathan knew where the party was that we were going to. The party was at some, not finished house... it was slightly boring so we left and went to Nolans. Which wasnt very much fun either, so we made a "wendy's run" to get JBC's
It was a looooong night we ended up in the drive thru about three times, and then drove around to the middle of nowhere where I had to pee really badly.
Yesterday we went swimming then watched porn.

How world wars are started:

Wow I cant believe what happened today. After school I went over to Bryans house and then all of a sudden I started crying. And we all know how I NEVER cry, even the saddest movie wont do it for me. I didnt even cry at my great grandpa's funeral or anything like that. I dont know why I started crying, it was more of a mini-breakdown. Man.......... I feel so embarrased/bad about it. Not only did I cry and be a complete loser, I couldnt talk about it afterwards. Now I just have a mind full of ten million thoughts that will make there way out into the world in some form or another.

Blame it on me

I think I may have found my calling in life. You know how Im all like "I want to become a pharmacy technician" and blah blah blah well.... damnit Im going to become one and thats final. I have some strange obsession with pills I've realized. And vitamins for that matter. In fact if I could live off pills and vitamins I probably would, I dont know why. Today I bought Kelp pills and vitamin C chewables. The Kelp pills are supposed to help with my bad circulation, but I realized that they are much better than that, its delightful. Plus they actually smell like seaweeds, its kinda gross and the only bad thing about them. ALthough I must admit they are much better than my vitamin B1's... dear god those things are wretched. The Vitamin C chewables are yummy. Garrett gave me one a couple of weeks ago, so I had to go and buy my own, well actually bryan bought them for me.

Wow this was a total post about my intake of useless pills. Arn't you happy you read this?

I also bought fish, chocolate and 2 dvd's, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and pulp fiction. We were going to go see The Aviator, but it ended too late, and it was tuesday so I wanted to buy fish since they were 50% off.

I wrote the news today

Yesterday was really quite fun. Hmm where did I last leave off actually? Friday was cool, I actually hung out with scott for lunch too... and I got icecream from Nathan. He came to the pool hall with everybody else that always goes too. Then during second block of Bio all me and bryan did was fool around, and he made a cool design on my binder.
I went over to his house after school for a couple of hours, then ran off to the mall where I had to meet my sister and parents. They had a tiger in the mall this weekend. Of course it was caged and then caged again, but it kinda caught me off guard when I walk into the mall then all of a sudden right after silver sense spot a tiger just lying there on the floor. Friday night I saw The ring 2, it was pretty good, just as good as the first one if I do say so.
Saturday morning I woke up and had to go over to my grandma's for lunch. I straightened my hair first though... not that it mattered by the end of the day, but o well. Then I met bryan at the mall and I had to finish buying some things, then we went back to his house. We got off of the bus at the lesure center because we didnt have another transfer. So we had to walk a bit in the snow... and let me tell you I was freezing by the time we got to his house because he kept throwing snow at me. I got him worse though.. mwhahaha.
We actually sat down and watched an actual movie. The whole thing, it was almost a miracle, or at least one of those once in a lifetime moments. His parents were home so I guess that would be why. We watched shaun of the dead. Then his parents left... and we ended up being late for the hockey game that we were going to that night. And we had another snow fight as we were waiting for the bus. I pushed him right down into this big snow bank... then kicked snow all over him and he came and wouldnt let go of me and made me freeze.
We got to the hockey game at the second period and ate sooo much. Hot dog, chocolate bar, popcorn... and I almost had Icecream but I was too full. It was fun.
Then I had to work this morning so I wasnt allowed to go to Niki's for a show last night........ o well. I dont know her all too well.. but so far im not a big fan of her, even though shes supposed to do a tarot reading for me sometime.

mmmm water

I feel so sick.... it sucks. And the whole thing I was trying to pull off today didnt really work. I think I have these vibes that emit from me, so when I dont want something or dont want people to talk about stuff , it happens, it happens, it happens, and worse than it would on a normal day. People are just assholes. .... Its annoying and makes me ill. The head stress is also unbearable.
I came home this afternoon and slept. I think I have a problem, all I ever seem to want to do is sleep. It agrivates me, I cant even watch a movie anymore without sleeping partway through it. Even if its a really good one. I need to go to the doctor.
I also went out to Perkins for supper and got practically yelled at cause I wasnt eating.... I hope to god my parents dont go down THAT road again... cause I've been there done that.

I thought you should know your not making this easy.

Well............ what the hell am I supposed to do now?
I hate it when plans, ideas, things change. Sure it may bring good things, but it sure makes me confused. And we all know how much I hate to be confused.
So today Bryan brings up the idea that hes moving to calgary right after grad.... riiiight. He says that I should come along too. But there is one small problem with that. Well actually there are many.
1. I have no money
2. I cant drive
3. I dont know anywhere I would stay
4. I wouldnt be allowed
5. Even if I was allowed I wouldnt be able to stay with bryan cause the convo with my mother at jysk the other day didnt go over too well when I brought up the idea of me ever moving in with bryan in the near future. Apparently I have to be married before I can move in with my boyfriend.
6. I have no clue where I would work
7. Im not ready to move out on my own considering Im only 17


SOO in all it just DOESN'T WORK, but I guess if he really wants to its not like I can stop him. Even though I'd probably end up being selfish and going "when you leave, dont expect me to wait for you." Cause trust me... I can go off right now if I wanted to, but I choose not to.

No matter how hard I beg or scream or cry..... they wont let me drop chemistry and its making me mad. hhahah Im totally lame... you know what Im going to do. Not do anywork.. that way either my teacher will call my parents and let me drop it, or kick me out saying that I suck too much to be in there. Although today I did have a cheesecake moment. Theres this annoying Eric kid that sits next to me, hes in grd 11. Basically all of my class is grd 11s but anyways. Hes always telling me what to do and how to do it properly, and sometimes he looks over at my work and then tells me everything thats wrong with it in this "im so much better than you" way. Ao today when we got our tests back guess who got the 71% while he only got 63%.... yes it was me.
But then matt got to work my homework and gave me 1/20 on it.... yeah how kind of him. Especially after taking his shift last night.

Damn right Its better than yours

la la la... Guess what I decided to make last night. Yes thats right, this years Patio furniture of luck. I miss my old one.. that one was the prettiest. This one says "breathe life into your summer" instead of "Spend the summer your way." o well.... Im gonna put one in my agenda... and then keep the other picture with me at ALLLLL times.
Today I got to play pool with about 10 guys... and two icky girls... and It was funny listening to kolby bitch about them in the car on the way back to school. Hes so gorgeous, and I have his math book... hehe

Bandages on my legs and my arms from you

I had to go to the dentist today.... god damnit, does no one understand that I cant have plans on wednesdays!?? I guess not... o well Im over it I suppose... Ill just have to listen to Indie music and get it out of my system... *sigh*

I got a cleaning done.... now I can have sparkly teeth for my grad pictures on sunday, so says my mom. Now all im left with besides normal teeth is a gap on my two bottom teeth.. always happens after a cleaning. Its odd looking.

The other day I went to go see Ong-Bak and it was surprisingly quite good and interesting. Before that we had supper and played a fun game called transfer the ice cube.... only we didnt play the way it sounds... that would be level 3 and we were only on level 1... anyways.. that got put off to the side when I looked over and then just shouted "Eww".... and apparently I was really loud.. Its not my fault people just disgust me.

I should have keyed his car.. but that would have been too obvious.
Sabrina was working that day too and she got to meet bryan..

FISHIES!!

Well today when I got to work I thought I was having the total best day of the whole week.... well I guess all three days kind of tied... but still it was super good.
I woke up at 9:30 becuase I told Bryan to call me at 10.. and he did. We went to the mall at 11... had lunch at the food court and then walked all the way to allowance pets, while we cut through the old folks home areas and stopped at future shop and the park on the way. I got three fish and my mom came and picked us up. THen me and Bryan just chilled in my room and he took my dead fish out and then we went downstairs and started watching the rocky horror picture show. When I get to work.... I get a present. Kurtis got me my wallet :)

THEN just when Im about to get off work... guess who comes in and ruins my WHOLE day.

When you see the bruises on my legs

Im bored. Not just for the moment either. Im bored with life in general and all the messed up things that I do. I dont know why, I just decided today when I got off the bus that I was bored with my life. The people, the surroundings, but myself in general. I think I need a vacation.

Is it normal for three different people to ask you the same question all within a matter of four days?

Your just too good to be true, cant take my eyes off of you

My valentines day couldnt have been better. Classes were all right and during chem they were handing out all the roses that people got and I could have sworn Bryan bought me one... so I didnt get one... and I was curious. So I went out for lunch with him and his friends, out for pizza again and to play chess. Then he asks me whos my chem teacher, So I told him it was bevan.. and then hes like "I made a mistake." and I was like "What?" and then he told me he sent me flowers and candy, but he thought my teacher was kemp.... and thats why I didnt get it. It was cute, so we went to get it after bio. Then after school I went over to his house for an hour, until we caught the bus. We went to the mall for a bit, then to Kelseys... aka the best restaurant in the entire world. After that we hang around the mall for a bit, then go see boogeyman. It was scary. And after that we were losers and hung around the arcade with no money. And kurtis was there. And it was superb.
And even though he was sicker than a banshee I decided it wasnt truely valentines day unless I kissed him, so I had to, and luckily Im not sick..... yet.

One of the many reasons people go crazy

Friday was probably the weirdest/ funnest day I have ever had in my life. I will recount it to the very last detail. Well.. I woke up, went to school of course. Realized I did my chem lab totally wrong so I didnt hand it in. All we learned about was bomb calorimetry.. pretty interesting if I do say so myself. Then from there I went to math, had a test which I most likely got 100% Math is suuuuper fun now. Then I had Bio.. which all we did was look through microscopes and do more slacking off. I couldnt stop laughing all that class, pretty much literally because Bryan was being really funny. Then from there... I went to my spare.. and did my chem lab over. I also started reading a magazine, and tried to hide it from freaking devil library woman because we all know what happened last time... O god.
So from there I met bryan at my locker again. And we met up with dave and alan, and joel and went to the donair place in daves car. And not only that but dave was smart enough to lock his keys in his car WHILE the car was running....
So we had pizza, and I watched them play chess.
THen after lunch was the last class of bio.... me and bryan basically were being compleate idiots AND dissecting a brain at the same time. It was sooo much fun.
Then it was time for me to go home....
When I decide to leave for work I almost jumped out of a moving vehicle and killed myself... So this is what happens.
While we are on our way, we come across a red light. It would be the red light between the wal mart and home depot. So.. I look ahead, because I am in the back seat.. and I see a vaguely familuar car... Matt haskels car. Then guess what I see... A very nice tanned VERY familuar arm fully out the passenger seat window waving toward me. Matt haskel was driving and Stephan just happened to be in the passenger seat. So when I look over as we were both driving past each other, they were laughing together, cause they are both gay. Things like this deserve bologna on cars, or perhaps taking out my handy dandy keys next time I go to the movies. Either way, I will get revenge, and it will be beautiful.
At work... I realized that I now will be working with Marilyn and Nathan, which should be interesting. I met them both at new years.
And that night Nolan and Alan came in... and tried getting me to give them free food.

Back to you, It always come back to you

Yesterday was sooo much fun. It was unfourtunate that I had to go to all my morning class. They were so boring. Double class of Chem, and also math. So we were supposed to leave at 12... and guess what time we actually left.... 2. WHy? Becuse kristen is almost as bad as the C.C. when it comes to being organized. It was making AMaya really mad.
So we left at 2..... got to brooks and got lots of snacks. Then when we got to calgary we went to this really cool store called megazone. THey had all hello kitty and Anime stuff. Not only that but they had NBC stuff too... but it was all so expensive so none of us got any stuff from there. From there we went to the universtiy to get our tickets... sadly the tickets wernt being given out until 8 or so... and it was only 6, so we went out for supper.
Dear god.. it litterally took us an hour and a half to find this thai resturant that kristen wanted to go to. But after we were done, finding it was well worth it.
From there we heading back to the university, got our tickets, got in. While Lindy was playing we got all our merch. I got the coolest t-shirt in the world. I wanted the black hoodie too...
The show was great.
And I think the ride back was almost as good... but thats a different story intirely.

In the Orchard

Friday was soo much fun. Scott didnt show up, and Andy forgot to give me a ride there.. but it was lots of fun. I sat with Bryan of course, and it was a comfy coach bus. On the way there they played a stupid movie. Actually both movies were stupid they played Joe somebody and The beverly hillbillies on the way back. So I listen to my mp3 player for half the way there, talked to bryan a bit. And we eventually both shared my mp3 player for a bit too. When we got there we walked around a bit with Andy.. then eventually went on a tour of the cooking rooms and bakerys and stuff. It was interesting plus I got a free donut which was probably the best donut I have ever had in my life... litterally. Then we ran out of things to do..... so we went to the mall for two hours. It was a rather small mall so we entertained ourselves by riding the escalators up and down and up and down.
Hmv was having a rather nice sale too... so I bought Kill Bill and Amelie. and Bryan bought Mortal kombat and Edward Scissorhands.
Then we went back, sat in the really cool study hall for a bit, then left to go back home. The ride back was the best....

Now for today which was almost better... but on different levels. My mom woke me up early cause we were going to lethbridge for the day. We where going to look at grad dresses for me and it was very successful. I got the nicest dress and its a cool color too. THen after an hour of dress deciding we went to the mall and they had a spencers! So I bought posters, and had an all around wonderful day.
I even conquered my fear of moxies.... since I remember EXACTLY what happened there last time.

I just couldnt keep this to myself...... XD

Who are you? Bryan of course

Are we friends? i hope more
When and how did we meet? well, its hard to say but i was always interested in you when we were in social class.
How have I affected you? you make me feel special
What do you think of me? i think that your very interesting and attractive and a very kind person
What's the fondest memory you have of me? hmmmmm, the first time i held your hand at the movies. (i hope that doesent sound pathetic)
How long do you think we will be friends? i hope a long time!
Do you love me? love is a strong word
Do you have a crush on me? o yes
Would you kiss me? i would
Would you hug me? yes
Physically, what stands out? to me, your greenish eyes and almost everything else, but i love your eyes
Emotionally, what stands out? your sense of humour
Do you wish I was cooler? not at all
On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? perfect
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. this is a hard one, lol sorry
Am I lovable? for shure
How long have you known me? since the begining of socials, but better for about 1 1/2 months
Describe me in one word. superduper (its kinda one word)
What was your first impression? wow
Do you still think that way about me now? i think more
What do you think my weakness is? i dont know
Do you think I'll get married? one fine day
What makes me happy? fun strange web sites, knowing your dreams, your vernon friends, the Magic Cactus, astrology
What makes me sad? stupid mrs debert, your unorganized parents and there plans for the weekend
What reminds you of me? honestly Tiger army songs, when i paint, but usually i think of you alot anyway
If you could give me anything what would it be? what ever you want from me most
How well do you know me? pretty good, but i hope better some day
When's the last time you saw me? today
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? many a times
Do you think I could kill someone? no

Dont let me be misunderstood

Today was a good day I had a double spare. So on the one right before lunch mom came and picked me up and we went out on the town...
Yeah we basically just went to the library, then for chinese food, then to dots which is a little store with value village type clothes... but not exactly the prices. But I did however find a cool pair of pants for $10 that needed some adjustments. But I did it all.. and now they are excellent. Then we still had time before lunch was over, so we went to the bargain store and I bought some stars and planets to stick on my ceiling, and they are colored which makes them ultra cool.

Guessy who transfered into my Bio class....
SCOTT!! and matt... This is going to be sooo much fun. Cause I know they are going to be sitting right in front of us because those are the only seats available. So its gonna be scott and bryan and matt and then dave.. but I dont know him too well. Tis going to be fun and waayyyyy unproductive. Luckily scott is pretty smart, he might be of some use to me.
AND tomorrow I get to ride 6 hours on the bus with him and Bryan and Andy and Chris. mwhahahahah I cant wait.
Andy wasnt home when I phoned though, so I still dont know if hes going to give me a ride or not....

You never know what could happen

It was the first day of my new semester. It freaking felt like the first day all over again, with slight differences. My first class was math. In fact, I had a double math class today and to my delight so far math wont be my most dreaded subject. Ugh.... chem seems like the devil since we got a review sheet today and I know nothing of what was taught in chem 20.
Mwhahah After all the bitching about Mrs Diebert, Bryan now understands what I had to go through, ahhahah. I am SOOOO glad I dont have her anymore!!! Its a big huge sigh of relief... *Siiiiiiigh* ^_^

Bio.... I can tell you already that NOTHING is going to get done. I sit with Bryan and his friend sits behind us... so we talk... and nothing gets accomplished. Much like today... we already have a project, and basically have to teach ourselves the nervous system.

Tomorrow should be grand... Im going over to Bryans again to watch Young Frankenstein... he said I have to come over and watch it since he bought it for me.

And I walked alone, waiting for you to come along

Is it normal to have equal feelings for three different people?
O god, I dont know why I do, but I still have feelings for Stephan... and whats worse is the fact that I saw him today. I came home and fell apart almost litterally. Its like that scene in Amelie where she sees him leave and then turns into water. If that could happen, thats exactly what would have. I wanted him to stay, because I just got off work at the time, but I went to go change, and I saw him. I guess it is true that you never get over someone.

As for the other two people.. I dont know what I want, I really dont.

Top 5 things I dislike
- Awkwardness
- Bad kissers
- Being bored
- Dissapointment
- Being annoyed/grouchy


Top 5 things I love
- Really good music
- Surprises
- Making out
- Sleeping
- feeling pretty

*sigh* Oh the Irony

Well...... Work over the last couple days was so hurtful... I got new shoes a week or so ago, and they hurt my feet like a banshee bite. But on the up side, I got to go home 2 hours early today, plus I got a 15 cent raise. It was gooooooood.
Scott almost broke my cd today.... and if he would have, I would have broke his face. He doesnt like modest mouse apparently, I knew that........ *tries not to remember our date*

So yeah.... I got tomorrow off, which is good, cause I dont like working, plus I get to do something tomorrow night..... if my parents feel like being nice and driving me.

I went to vist Andy today at the Mohawk, I got a slush.... and so did amanda..... but I actually just went there to talk to him, the slush is now in the freezer.

Army dreamers

Grr you know how I hate liars.... well today was bad. In the afternoon I went to go try on grad dresses again. God.... what a gong show that was. And I dont think it was lack of sleep cause I slept in till 11:30 this morning, but after an hour, I almost wanted to cry cause I was so frustrated.
So yeah.... trying on dresses was not at all successful cause I happen to be a fat cow. Thats the conclusion I have come to. There were all these dresses that were sooo pretty, but do you think they fit me properly? No... why? Because my ass and hips are so freaking huge. It makes me want to cry.
And then guess who had the nerve to call me "small" the stupid ugly saleslady. I almost flipped and went "ARE YOU INSANLY BLIND???"

Im going in a potato sack....... thats it. It covers everything, that people dont have to see.

It must have been love, but its over now

I think I lost 2 years off of my life today because of all the second hand smoke I inhaled, but hey it was fun while it lasted. So... I went to physics did absolutely nothing. So kristen was all like "hey, you want to go make popcorn." and I said yes, cause I really didnt want to sit through english and do those freaking "practice exams" again. So we went to Safeway, Jen came along. Then we went back to the school and made our popcorn and Kristen had to do socials, so we went for a bit. Then Bryan said he would be in the art room, so after the second block, I made kristen come on a hunt for him with me. Then there was some sad little boy in the hall so Kristen tried to cheer him up, but then he started getting mad. So she went all crazy and did a lobster dance and tried to make him do it too, but then he got mad. So we went back to the socials room and Alan was in there.
That's when we randomly decided we wanted to go downtown to shop at Triple E. So we were leaving to go shop, Kristen found steph and we all went. It was the most interesting store I have ever seen.....
So then we go back to the school, hang out around Andy's car for a bit.
Then finally I decide to drag Bryan into the school with me because Im cold. We skipped out on socials and sat in the hall for a bit because he needed to finish his painting.
Andy and Kristen then come and join us for a bit, and I finally catch a ride with Andy home.
It was around 1:30 when I got home and I expected my mom to be home. But she wasnt. So I left a message for my sister at the school that I had gotten a ride home. But when my sister and mom got home, they wernt too pleased with me. Because my sister didnt get the message.

Overall It made for a very interesting last day of school before exams