I heard this morning in the paper that britney spears is going to have another child. Good lord, the woman cant even take care of one, nevermind her husband, so why the hell is she having another one. Its called birth control, its there for a reason.
I bet shes just fat and she needs an excuse for why she cant lose weight.

just stop talking

Friday was the weirdest day ever. My boss took me out for coffee. We had nothing to do, and we were just standing around for 2 hours until he starts taking off his apron and is like "where do you want to go" so.... I picked tim hortons, cause its fast and I didnt know what else to do. He also asked me why I had to have half of monday off, so I told him that I was getting my blood test results back. Then hes like " why did you need a blood test, are you pregnant." thats not the worst of it, then hes like "no, your not engaged or living with anyone, you wouldnt have premarital sex." I almost died.
Then I go home and my mom tells me she found my frog that I lost.... last august/september. She said she touched it, and its leg fell off cause it was like dust. She said she almost puked.
I also went to the bar, it was lots of fun, bitch face was there too.... but shes a loser so I didnt pay much attention. There were lots of other cool people there though, so that made it fun, and we danced all night long. I also went back to bryans house and almost fell asleep, but went home at 2.
Saturday I had to work all day which sucked, and it also rained so it was kinda depressing. But I saw american dreams that night, that is a weird movie, but its also good.
Then sunday was also a lazy day, we went shopping, out for coffee/lunch. And..... thats it.

testing testing

For therapeutic use only

Yesterday I went shopping and bought a WHOLE bunch of things that I hope are going to help me with my skin problems like vitamin A and D, and new skin cleanser. I even bought supper and soy milk for myself. mmmmmm. It was very good, the supper, but I Spent a lot of money on everything. I even bought myself corn remover patches because I have little corns on my feet that just wont go away. My tumor on the top of my foot is also coming back.... grr, it really really ugly.
Today I had most of the day off too, so me and my mommy went shopping and I found the prettiest shoes to go with my dress. I also wanted to get another pair, the ones in the picture, Oh they were so pretty, but they were $70 a pair, so I could only afford one pair.
But anyways, its wierd owning expensive things, instead of just $20 jeans, and $10 shirts from wal mart or something. I mean its not like I go shopping all the time, but when I do, I go all out and spend LOTS. Next time I go to calgary, I have a list of everything I need to buy, I cant wait.

green walls

Well today I had my much anticipated blood test and it didnt exactly go smoothly. First I sat with my mother in the waiting room with about 10 other people. When they called me, I followed this girl into a little room with about 3 chairs. They sat me down, tied the thing around me and tried for about 5 minutes on each arm to find a vein, finally one girl found it but then she left to go to some other ology place and let another girl deal with me. She eventually found one, stuck in the thing and thats when it happened. I nearly fainted, I was so light headed that I felt like I was going to throw up. I told the girl I was light headed and she gave me water and another girl told me I looked the same color as the walls. No blood had yet been drawn at this point either. So then the girl asked me if I would like to lay down while she takes my blood, I said sure, and she took me into another room away from the other two old people getting thier tests done. She finds a vein again, this time on another arm, sticks it in, and doesnt get any blood. She then calls in another woman to do it, they tie the thing around my arm again, try and find a vein, and then finally they take my freaking blood.
My mother was worried, and she knew the water must have been for me. So she took me to starbucks after for a cinnamon roll and green tea latte, which was super good.

Then we went to michaels, I got paint and painted pots for... 5 hours and im not even done yet, no joke. Im painting them to match the apartment, they rock.

SHOP SHOP SHOP, and spend all bryans money

As you know, well actually I dont know that you actually know yet so Ill start from the beginning. Bryan and Amaya are moving out together. It is finalized because amaya paid the $500 safety deposit today and they got the one with balcony for wicked cool bbqs, and the one with big rooms. So today to celebrate me and amaya went shopping. Not only did we just go shopping, we went shopping at walmart the houseware capital, kinda. The other day we all kinda sat down and decided on a color scheme to keep to, so the house doesnt look all disorentated and ugly. Much like I thought it would if it were just bryan, chris and dave. But now it will be beautiful, the color scheme is green and black. Soooo walmart was the queen of lime green and black, we got towels, kitchen stuff, plates, dishes, EVERYTHING lime green. And the best thing of all, a tropical beach shower curtain. Man... even though its not my house right now and all, I cant wait to move in. Im going to move in when im done school and I finally learn how to drive, which I was going to do today, but then I got a stomach ache.

Also, I went to the doctors today, and since it was MY doctor, hes giving me a blood test now instead of that other stupid retard.
Oh and my sister left for england today, lucky little bum, but... I get to wear all the clothes she left behind, mwhahaha.

All I feel is HATE!!!!

I cant believe how bad yesterday was, I cant believe the nerve of some people who just say anything cause they're old and feeling sorry for themselves. Im talking about bryans parents, I cant even expain how much of a bunch of crabs they are. Yesterday they made me cry. They basically said that its my fault that me and bryan always hang out in his basement just because they think I dont like them. And that im rude and unthoughtful and a whole bunch of shit like that.
Bryans stepmom is a total cow, she said that im stuck up, just because I didnt ask how his dad was after the surgery. Well if I remember correctly, the day they got back from calgary me and bryan were eating lunch and they walked in, bryan asked them how he was,and what am I supposed to do, ask again, be a parrot, just so I can ask him how he was feeling. I dont get it. When I was over there once when I had a full body rash, no one even cared to ask me how I was. They never ask me how I am, even in normal conversation, heck they dont even MAKE normal conversation with me. and they think I dont like them, they dont even make any recognition towards the fact that I exsist. She also said that I never help bryan cook or clean up whenever he makes me supper like im some kind of spoiled brat. But whenever bryan makes me supper he always tells me to sit down and he doesnt need my help because he wants to make it FOR me. I always offer to clean up, but again he likes to do it for me. Shes such a fucking cow, her stupid kitchen isnt even big enough for two people now thanks to their "beautiful renovation." Personally, its ugly, and there really is no room for anything, its barely big enough for the dishwasher door to open. They think I didnt like them, well.... NOW I really have no reason to TOLERATE them. I cant believe anyone would actually say things like that about me, what have I ever done to them?

CREEEEEEEPY

The other day my boss needed updated information like address, phone, and he even wanted my email so I had to give it to him and all, but after I gave him the piece of paper I wrote it on hes all like "Hey you have hotmail, do you have msn, I should add you to mine, but then you'd know my address" He was being all creepy about it, not that thats any different from the other 7 hours a day that I see him. That day was extra creepy, he wore a pink shirt and kept telling me that NO I wasnt having a bad day, like it matters to him...... god. Then the day after that some wierd person with a wierd email adds me.... Im crossing my fingers and hoping to god that its not my boss. I just hope its another stalker that got my email off of here or something, or else I just might have to move and change names and enter some protection program against creepy bosses. Other than that things havnt been to good, not that thats good, but they're not better. Bryans dad had a heart attack on tuesday. So from now on me and bryan are eating healthy! Except for the donuts I had today... and yesterday. So much for my hypoglycemic diet too. Im a sucker for sugar, im so bad at restricting myself. His dads going to be fine though, it was only minor and he just has to stay in the hospital for a week just for caution.

two things

So I went to the doctors yesterday, it was kinda a waste of my time and more impotantly and obviously a waste of the doctors time. It wasnt my regular doctor, it was his fill in, the one who didnt help me a bit when I was dying last time. I already knew he wasnt going to do a thing when I went in. When I told him what was wrong with me, a whole 5 minutes of my time telling him what was wrong with me all he heard was 'migraine' so all he did was ship me out the door with migraine pills.... he told me it was caused by hypoglycemia but did he tell me what to do about it? no, all he told me was, if im addicted to coffee i should still drink it at regular intervals..... god, I almost told him to shove the pills up his ass and go back to community college and take something were it doesnt involve thinking cause hes really not to good at it. I even asked him if I could get a blood test done at the clinic, he told me I dont need one and it wouldnt tell me anything. argh.

But I guess the pills did come in handy, I had to use one the same night that how bad and frequent they are, I went to bed at 9 right after work because of it. The pills are $20 each which is going to hurt.
Im started a hypoglycemic diet and unofficially pronouncing myself hypoglycemic. So in three months when it works im going to be happy, and never go back to that doctor again, cause he sucks.

friday im in love

FRIDAY really wasnt a whole big deal, i mean i wanted it to be and all donsidering that it was st. patricks day and everything, but honestly it kinda sucked. We really didnt do a whole lot... we sat around, slept and went over to bryans sisters house to see what was happening to her fish cause they were all dying. That took up all day, but we got chinese food out of it. Then we went to the mall because we were originally going to see the trailer park boys show at the college, but it was sold out. When we got to the mall though there was a kid selling his tickets cause he would rather go to the punk show. So instead of paying $25 for each ticket, we payed $20 for both, we were pretty proud and happy. Dave and Kyle were going to that too, so we phoned them and met them at the subway and we all went and had a grand ol'time drinkind screwdrivers... actually that was only me. After that we went to ezzies, it was dead, so we went to the silver buckle but it sucked because there was no one there that we knew, so we went back to ezzies for about 20 minutes. It really sucked, I didnt want to drink a whole bunch that night, but I at least wanted green beer which I never got :(
Saturday bryans mom was in town so... we went to the meat draw at the legion again. Its actually kinda boring, we just sit there for 4 hours doing nothing but drinking. And I wasnt even drinking, I had 7 ups and thats it, cause I didnt feel very good.
We went to firewall that night though with his aunt, cousin, sister and mom. Bryan said hes never going to the movies with 5 girls again, it was great. And besides breakfast this morning at his grandmas house, that just about sums up my weekend.

But I am going to the doctors something this week I think, I really dont feel good, its not just because I dont feel good though, ive been eating junk food and drinking all weekend its just cause im unhealthy at the moment. What im going to the doctors for is the fact that everytime I dont eat for over an hour, I either feel extreamly faint or I get a migraine so bad that it makes me throw up, its happened twice in the last month and im getting worried. I hate feeling like theres something wrong with me.