i think im going slighly mad!!!!!!! AND my tumor has grown 8 cetimeters, pretty soon it'll start to pop out of my head, then i will be labeled a freak, or more of for that matter. So then my tumor will just grow more, i do say this is a very vicious circle. You can all tell that ive had a very stressful day. NOT all i did today was sing and hum and run around jumping off walls and eat fudge, which was the cause of all this!! Kylie gave us our christmas presents early so we all ate the fudge and chocolate she gave us all day. I was sooo hyper. I cant wait, i cant wait only 4 more days until christmas vacation. I bougth alekes a secret santa today too, i have to buy my sister one tomorrow and maybe other people..... hehehehe i should give one to kenny and sign it georgie, he'll never know its from me! The chem test we had the other day, well we got our results back and lets just say i didn't do as well as hoped. but o well it's soon to be christmas and im too hyper to worry about my marks.

Doesn't it just suck when you have those perfect moments in your life and then all of a sudden without even realizing how fast the time is going, they are gone. Everything just goes perfect for a minute or even a day then a day later they will never be like that again, EVER. I would give anything to have some moments back. Sometimes you dont even realize they are perfect until after they are over with, then you want to rewind the time. you want to be back where you were, what you were doing or listenin to, because it will never be the same again. It kinda sucks how you can never reclaim that moment.

I bought everyones christmas presents today, well the rest i had to but for anyways. So now i'am officially done. It's a good thing too since we are all exchanging them this friday, oooooo i cant wait, i can't wait. The last day of school only 5 days away!!!!!!!!!!ahhh i love christmas!!!!! I want to go to medicine hat though... o well, next time. Even though I spent a month there this summer i still havn't had enough of it, or my grandma for that matter, lol.

Our christmas cookies and possibly a crafts day today was great, although we didn't make a craft. We made sugar cookies and nobody has eaten krystals elephant family yet, lol. Santa looked like osama bin laden though, so we ate him, he was also chuck. Then we went to the movies, krystal was dieing the whole time though. her and her poor eyes.... maybe its's from looking at chuck so much. I must say though that gothika is the creepiest movie i have seen this year, its soo scary. 14A hahaha yea right. Love Actually was really good, i've already decided that i'm buying it when it comes out on dvd. And looney Tunes was only ok, it was decent to only watch once.

I cant wait until tomorrow, it's our Christmas cookies and possibly a crafts day. we're also gonna be writing our letters to santa.... ahhhh i love christmas. It seems today that my tumor is back. Krystal is the cause of it, lol..................... but shes not the only reason i'm dieing!!! I have a HUGE test next in chemistry, i dont want to go, but the thing is i only half know what i'm doing.

Make tea not love, hahhahaha

The dance last night was a lot of fun. There wasnt many people there though which kinda sucked. Mwhahahahah guess who danced with pretty's brother aka conrad TWICE, yes all that is right, it was me, i danced with him twice. The first time i asked him and then 2 songs later he asked me, it was soo much fun. But he did swear a lot which kinda got annoying. Anyways todays friday, but there wont be any subway and a movie today. But i do get relaxation time. on thursday after school we went to art knapp and we went to go get our tree. the only reason i like that place is becasue its so christmasy and it had free hot apple cider. then we came home and decorated it, there is only 18 more days until christmas. Its 6 o clock right now, i decided to get up early to watch michelle branch on the todays show. so i must go watch it..

Well so much for going and cutting down a tree this year, talk about depressing!!! Since my sister has a band concert tonight that we all MUST attend, we dont have time to go out to cut down the tree. My computers broken again, its a good thing it didn't die a while ago though, since my dad is here again and he can fix it. Today the CC was being extreamly annoying during art, im suprised i actually didn't kill her this weekend!! During lunch today all krystal, jen and I did was sit in this computer class to make up 0's we missed when we were away or sick or something. O well christmas cookies will make my day all better again, AND HEHEH i live on the non loser side of the mountain!!!!

I'm back, as it is apparent to all of you. So now i will tell you all about my weekend in surrey. We were supposed to leave right at lunch 11, we ended up leaving at 2. So we got there at about 6 or 7. Then Ben was playing at a bar aka "lounge" and Josh was going to be there also, so we went. We sat with all of Josh's relatives and it was really fun. Josh's grandpa was drunk and so were a bunch of people who were really entertaining to watch dancing. We got back and watched the Avengers. Saturday was all went to Guildford mall for a while until the movie was going to start, then we walked over to the silvercity. Then since no one could pick us up after the movie we went back to the mall for a bit. Saturday night me and kylie went to watch Ben play hockey and i got to kinda meet Berend, my life is now complete. Then On Sunday we left at 12 after church. It was a fun weekend. There was a small problem though i like him too much. I was too nervous to just be myself.

This is a rant. Don't you just hate those people who think they know EVERYTHING. Like the way you are, they reason you do things, the reason you are the way you are. Uh i have news for you YOU DONT!!!!!!!! you have no idea why i do the things i do, so don't even bother trying to understand. They frickin piss me off SOOO incredibly much, because you think YOU would know why things are the way they are with you. But then when you say something or whatever, they don't believe you, cause THEY'RE RIGHT AND YOUR WRONG! sometimes you can't even tell people why or why not. You shouldn't even have to, people have things they would like to keep to themselves, they don't have to tell you EVERYTHING, just because you frickin want to know. People should just mind they're own business, but no unfourtunatley they don't. Instead they want to make your life miserable. Lets just say i wish more than anything that things could go back to how they were last year. I liked LAST december A WHOLE BUNCH more!!!!!!! I think i better go drink water.......

Ahhh its december....... Thats means that chrsitmas is coming!!!!!! Yesterday i opened the first chocolate of my advent calendar, it was quite sad to be honest. Anyways yesterday i got to use the pottery wheel in art and i must say that i'am a pro. hahah not, but i did manage to make a vase or bowl or something, its kinda warped whatever it is.